10 ReTHUGlicans Who Should Go Away Posted on 24 November 2008 I bumped into Ben Cohen’s article last night (10 Republicans Who Should Go Away), and couldn’t just pass on it without some comment. Note: The text in [ ] are mine. The rest are by Ben Cohen. In summary here are the TEN: 1. William Kristol — has been wrong on just about everything, and what a [ ] Popularity: 1% [?
Love Situation. PLEASE HELP ME?! ?
When I was in 6th grade, I finally met a guy that I thought I could possibly like and possibly get along with. Of course, he was one of those good looking guys that any girls can possibly fall for (except for his weird personality). But I seriously didn't see him this way! I liked because he was weird and stupid and he likes video games as well! Just like me! I like to play fight with him and anything he does just gets me attracted!
Well..ok! I didn't get too attracted with him in the beginning until when he approached me out of nowhere saying that "he liked me". He does this once in a while and approaches me saying that "he likes me" out of the blues during middle school. I began to believe him! My hopes grew even more when he kept saying this to me! And I remembered one time when he told me to take my hand out and he kissed my hand! That's when I really fell for him HARD! Throughout my years in middle school, I never told him how I felt. And for me, when I do like a guy, I only think of it as little crushes that would dissapear.
In 7th grade, people were spreading rumours about me liking this guy. It was obviously embarassing because how they found out was through my obvious expressions. The guy I liked then became so curious that one time he approached to me and asked, "Is it true that you like me?". I didn't even know what to say to him!
In 8th grade I wrote him a two page love letter and it took me hours to write! When I arrived at school I gave up on the letter and threw in the garbage. I felt hopeless. A few months later he went out with another girl. I even saw him asking her out right in front of my eyes! The girl even went up to me and told me "Is it okay that I went out with your man?" It was my first time experiencing such dramatic situation. I really did not know what to do! I felt so jealous but I even lied to her and said, "yes I'm fine." When I was totally not fine! Of course I don't know why she would do this to me because I never harmed her in anyways. I really could not take this pain any longer when he was going out with her. I eventually butted into his love life and confessed to him a few days later (or so I think it was a few days O_o). I couldn't even believe myself confessing to a guy! I swear! And for the first time as well! When I confessed, he told me that all the "approaches" he had did in the past were just dares in order to get money from his friends. I felt so down for awhile and even suicidal too! But I eventually got away with this feeling pretty quickly. I had such a horrible year in 8th grade!
Then when it came towards high school, I was still stuck with him in the same high school. Except his ex-gf from 8th grade went to another school and eventually they broke up. Nothing much really happened during freshmen year and in the beginning of sophomore year. Towards the end of sophomore year, I remember I was bothering him about something (I really don't remember) until he boldly said to me, "Do you still like me? Get over me. You don't need a guy like me." Of course, I was mad. I am still mad at what he had done to me in 8th grade!
My love life has obviously been a lie! Because of him, whenever I see guys, I feel so scared of guys. I really don't know what I should do! I remember writing him a closure letter around last month (junior year). I wrote him everything honestly about what I had thought about him and that I wanted to end this situation and to ignore what had happened. I eventually, wanted to end our friendship.
It's so funny because my locker is on top and his locker is on the bottom. And me and him are in the same art class. I know I should have stuck up to him and kicked his ass from the start for hurting me so much! I have no idea what he is thinking! I don't even know why he even planned to use me in such ways and so cruel too! But the problem is, I still like him even if he hurts me. I do not know why, why my heart still goes for him. It was too hard to forget. And yes, he was the first guy I ever truly liked.
~I really don't know what I should do now. I don't want to forget! And yet I really don't want to give up! I want to win his heart, But I am unsure how...Is there anyway that I can solve this problem?
